My perspective on ayahuasca as a secret psychonaut (and why I am not stopping my ceremonial work in the "spiritual community" no matter what anybody’s content hook says)
I appreciate the depth and honesty of this share Caitlyn! 🌹 Ayahuasca is a beautiful spirit being that has been a powerful catalyst in my life as well—she holds a special place in my heart. I love how you wrote that these medicines heal through connection. I have found that to be true of all the plant teachers, dream teachers… all the teachers really! A good teacher always guides us back inside to connect to all that is. Thanks for sharing your heart love! xo
As I was listening to this post I got truth bumps all over my whole body, and then they began to come in waves, over and over again, until my entire body was vibrating in resonance with the truth that you are sharing. Thank you for being brave enough to speak this truth! I pray that one day I have the opportunity to sit in ceremony with you. When Aubrey first spoke of his experience with Aya, it lit a tiny spark of curiosity inside me. Being that I have indigenous DNA from the region of Bolivia and Peru, I always felt this experience was something I was called to. It wasn't until a decade later that I finally had an opportunity to taste the medicine. It wasn't the experience I had hoped for, far from ideal, but the echoes from that experience slowly rippled out overtime. It's had a lasting profound effect on my life for my good and the good of all. It all started from that one drop in a still pond that rippled out across my consciousness. To witness you honor grandmother Aya with such reverence and devotion fills my heart with hope for humanity!
This saying, “Peak a boo” experience rings in my head when it comes to medicine…
Peak experience meets peek a boo 🦦
As in a glimpse into the way is the way and yet, then we enter back into this life, the chaos and its impossibly hard decisions for if and only if you’re playing with and for others - you will fail and death will come for all of them.
Shit that got dark - point is.
Medicine without a set intention, thoughtful setting and support is a trip, a moment in time and in my youth that’s awe that mattered.
She still calls me though 🦉 and g mas whisper is the real deal.
Thanks for this Caitlyn. Much love. I struggle to find the words to convey the impact Aya has had on me and my life. I am living on the side of a mountain because of her. Grateful.
Wow, the part about wanting to take the word 'ayahuasca' out of people's mouths really stood out to me. You totally nailed the complexity and how deep these experinces run. I mean, even when things feel unspeakable, I sometimes wonder if there's an API for it, you know? Like, to map it somehow.
This was so refreshing to read! As a former addict, currently and forever in recovery, there has been this push and pull with my ego - as well as what will other people think? Yet the medicine has been calling to me for over 10 years.
And returning …
The voice voices never get louder, but almost more permissive.
Thank you again for your honest and pure introduction of your experience with the great mother.
Always enjoy your carefully curated words, Caitlyn. I especially enjoyed the idea of the medicine space as a place to integrate LIFE. Honestly, it is the place where the whirlwind of atemporal confusion that is my typical waking reality finally quiets down, and things finally make sense. I see myself, I see others, I see the threads of the grand tapestry. Like an existential exhale, I feel myself rest there in a way I have a difficult time integrating in the “3D” world. It is the place I go to die, when I need to die. The place I go to birth, and be reborn. I hope you experience the perfect combination of souls for your next journey, as I know you will ✨🌀🔥
I appreciate the depth and honesty of this share Caitlyn! 🌹 Ayahuasca is a beautiful spirit being that has been a powerful catalyst in my life as well—she holds a special place in my heart. I love how you wrote that these medicines heal through connection. I have found that to be true of all the plant teachers, dream teachers… all the teachers really! A good teacher always guides us back inside to connect to all that is. Thanks for sharing your heart love! xo
As I was listening to this post I got truth bumps all over my whole body, and then they began to come in waves, over and over again, until my entire body was vibrating in resonance with the truth that you are sharing. Thank you for being brave enough to speak this truth! I pray that one day I have the opportunity to sit in ceremony with you. When Aubrey first spoke of his experience with Aya, it lit a tiny spark of curiosity inside me. Being that I have indigenous DNA from the region of Bolivia and Peru, I always felt this experience was something I was called to. It wasn't until a decade later that I finally had an opportunity to taste the medicine. It wasn't the experience I had hoped for, far from ideal, but the echoes from that experience slowly rippled out overtime. It's had a lasting profound effect on my life for my good and the good of all. It all started from that one drop in a still pond that rippled out across my consciousness. To witness you honor grandmother Aya with such reverence and devotion fills my heart with hope for humanity!
This saying, “Peak a boo” experience rings in my head when it comes to medicine…
Peak experience meets peek a boo 🦦
As in a glimpse into the way is the way and yet, then we enter back into this life, the chaos and its impossibly hard decisions for if and only if you’re playing with and for others - you will fail and death will come for all of them.
Shit that got dark - point is.
Medicine without a set intention, thoughtful setting and support is a trip, a moment in time and in my youth that’s awe that mattered.
She still calls me though 🦉 and g mas whisper is the real deal.
Thanks for this Caitlyn. Much love. I struggle to find the words to convey the impact Aya has had on me and my life. I am living on the side of a mountain because of her. Grateful.
Wow, the part about wanting to take the word 'ayahuasca' out of people's mouths really stood out to me. You totally nailed the complexity and how deep these experinces run. I mean, even when things feel unspeakable, I sometimes wonder if there's an API for it, you know? Like, to map it somehow.
This was so refreshing to read! As a former addict, currently and forever in recovery, there has been this push and pull with my ego - as well as what will other people think? Yet the medicine has been calling to me for over 10 years.
And returning …
The voice voices never get louder, but almost more permissive.
Thank you again for your honest and pure introduction of your experience with the great mother.
Continued blessings to you,
Jodi
Always enjoy your carefully curated words, Caitlyn. I especially enjoyed the idea of the medicine space as a place to integrate LIFE. Honestly, it is the place where the whirlwind of atemporal confusion that is my typical waking reality finally quiets down, and things finally make sense. I see myself, I see others, I see the threads of the grand tapestry. Like an existential exhale, I feel myself rest there in a way I have a difficult time integrating in the “3D” world. It is the place I go to die, when I need to die. The place I go to birth, and be reborn. I hope you experience the perfect combination of souls for your next journey, as I know you will ✨🌀🔥