Vampire Diary #1: 20 Effective Invitations for Spiritual Interference

*Or: All the ways I have attracted energy vampires into my life

At this point in my life, I can say with confidence and a little sigh of amused acceptance that I have clearly incarnated with a particular karmic assignment: to learn a lot of things the hard way. Which I think, to put it differently, simply means to learn through experience. Because life is not easy.

Thanks to the deeply ingrained programming around original sin and karma as punishment that I (like so many of us) have carried around for so long it feels like I was actually born with it, I used to perceive this pattern as something I must have earned by being bad and doing things wrong.

But now I hold it lightly. Learning doesn’t always come easy. And for some of us, we can’t learn by being told; we have to learn for ourselves.

Shoot, maybe “learning the hard way” is actually my soul’s existential kink?

Maybe somewhere beyond my small, disempowered ego self is a valiant and mighty golden shadow self who has been LOL-ing at my self-pity all along, knowing I was born precisely with the mission to go through some hard shit. And she likes it.

Then again, maybe I am just one of the stubborn and fearful people who has to wait until the whisper of my soul becomes a scream, the stakes are high, and I am experiencing unnecessary suffering before I really integrate my lessons and make the changes I know I have to make…

Both are probably true.

Whatever the case may be, I now find myself here, recently on the other side of another birthday, in my early forties and preparing for motherhood soon (I hope), with a wealth of well-earned life experience that I want to start sharing the lessons I have lived hard enough to learn in a more consistent way.

While there might be a lot of people out there who, like me, will still need to learn the hard way (themselves), I can say that awareness often saves a lot of time spent in that purgatory of “unnecessary suffering”.

Maybe, if I share what I have gleaned from hell, I can help you get out of it a little faster or sooner in your life than I have when I’ve been there.

And God knows that if there has ever been a good time to start doing everything we can to save each other from the threat of apocalyptic hellfire that we are facing here in the 2020s, now is the time.

I watched one of my best friends labor through the birth of her first child this past week. As the hours passed at her side, I felt the surreal, reality-warping power of that veil between worlds breathe all of us in and out of a sudden lucidity with life and death. When she was eventually transported to the hospital for c-section, my entire being was left ringing with one clear message: No more holding back.

Is there anything in the cosmos more simultaneously powerful and vulnerable than a human life?

We are so mortal. So soft and ephemeral… And yet, we are also so unfathomably strong in spirit, intent, creativity, and resilience. Watching a live birth is proof of that. (And a potent reminder that AI really cannot replace us for everything… especially what matters most)

This was not the first birthing threshold I have witnessed, but being the most fresh in my memory, I came home with a fierce determination to give birth to everything that I have been holding back over the years: my own child, my true story, my first real novel, and - perhaps first and foremost because it is all so ripe it might rot if I wait any longer - every tool and lesson I have collected over my lifetime that might help another person survive these times.

There really has never been less certainty about the future, and time is warping with palpable acceleration in the advent of AI. So, no more holding back.

The best way of following that instruction that I know of is to write. And to share what I write.

So where to begin?

Well, I think I am going to get a little weird. I want to start talking more about what I am finding to be particularly relevant and useful lore: namely that of demons, vampires, psychic attack, and spiritual battle.

Because the most recent lessons I have been able to add to my strand of hard-earned pearls of wisdom have come from the slow and subtle teachings of the school of shadow interference.

What exactly is spiritual interference? It would be a little crazy for me to pretend I can answer that question, because it is part of the great mystery which includes all unseen and immeasurable forces.

But I can talk about what it has meant to me in a more grounded and practical sense. So I will be unpacking what I have experienced with “interference” in my next few posts, which will be titled as “Vampire Diaries” because, at the secret center of my spiritual journey over the past 18 months, I have spent a lot of time working with mythic maps of demon hunting and vampire slaying to get myself out of my own personal hell.

It is difficult to pinpoint precisely when it began for me, because I honestly always was a hot mess of a young woman. As a neurodivergent, super type B wild child, chaos was a cloak that I wore for most of my life. And I was no stranger to common proverbial demons of temptation and misfortune.

But it has been many years now since I transcended that old familiar pattern when I found a path of higher alignment with my soul. Prosperity and blessings beyond my wildest expectations followed. I was walking in purpose and service, fulfilled and confident that I was on track to make all of my dreams come true. I finally experienced the beauty of order, and I matured into a woman there. As the saying goes, the wind was at my back for quite some time.

But, as any true path of soul is bound to take a person, I eventually found myself at a challenging crossroads where it would be time to level up, just as soon as I was getting a little too comfortable. Translation: things suddenly got hard again.

The wind started to push against me at first, and then over time, pummel me in the face. Much to my dismay and resistance, the world I knew slowly started to crumble. It was time for a new iteration of myself.

This fallout period started subtly in mid-2023. Over the following 18 months, my money drained, my health started to decline, and trouble started brewing in virtually every area of my life. I reached the most intense peak of misery and confusion last year, in 2025.

At my best moments, I understood that life was simply keeping its promise of impermanence and I was at the mercy of its imperative for growth and evolution.

At my worst moments, I fell into the terrible dread that I was indeed cursed, likely being stalked by demonic entities, and might be doomed to perish at age 42.

I still can’t say for sure that both stories weren’t true. But either way, I was not doomed. I was destined to become a slayer and save myself from my own worst fears.

Looking back I can see a remarkable “coincidence” that around the time when the wind started to shift directions in 2023 I was given an antique vampire hunting kit as a belated birthday present. I had a lifelong passion for vampire lore that started in childhood with the Buffy the Vampire Slayer movie so the gift was a total thrill. It’s hard to tell if the slayer box came to support me just in time as the energy vampires started to come for me, or if my interest in the slayer box opened my psychic field up to a new layer of the unseen dimension and catalyzed a sort of initiation to awaken the spiritual warrior within me.

Either way, the box has been a symbolic portal and powerful talisman that has really helped save me from being overcome by any of a number of forms of destructive darkness.

Before that initiatory shift in late 2023, I was thriving. I had hundreds of thousands of dollars in the bank. I was co-hosting a flourishing community and a full-on music festival which was named after my own inner vision (and was also my dreamlife baby). I was working in a well-paid job that I adored, doing the most rewarding work of my life. I was in the best physical shape I had ever been in. I finally had a healthy, loving partnership with my fiance Erick.

And over the next couple of years, I managed to swiftly ruin almost all of it.

Of course, I didn’t set out to consciously destroy my own happiness. I hardly noticed the erosion happening until everything began to really crumble. So I can’t - and don’t - fault myself. At the time, I simply did not have the knowledge and the capacity to hold and protect the life I had. I had to learn through experience.

But in hindsight, I do take responsibility for my own demise, because I can see now where I made myself vulnerable to the vampiric energy (mindset, thoughts, patterns, relationships and behaviors) that ultimately sucked the life out of that dream I was living.

Taking responsibility for my own errors gave me the power to fight my way up from the rock bottom I hit financially, physically and emotionally. And you can bet I am going to continue to fight to rebuild a bigger and better (and refreshingly different) life than I had before with everything I have learned in the process.

It was actually that very process of fighting for my life that gradually revealed the “Slayer” archetype for me; a full circle gift from the vampire slaying kit I received for my birthday 3 years ago.

So for this first “vampire diary,” I am going to share where I went wrong and how I invited in the energy vamps so (hopefully) you can prevent the same kind of tragic self-destruction I have spent the past year repairing.

Now, to explain it all in detail would require me to write a small memoir. Instead, I’ve taken the time to retrace the missteps and sift them out of my own stories into a clear list for you.

Let’s have a look.

From personal experience, here are my own hard-learned…

20 Ways to Become Vulnerable to Interference & Unwittingly Invite in Energy Vampires

1. Break your Word to Yourself

Tell yourself you are going to make the move, quit the drug, or start the new habit (even in the privacy of your own mind) and then change your mind or make an excuse why not yet.

2. Obey Creative Resistance

When Resistance rears its head, and writers block or creative constipation kicks it, and you let it stop you or hold you back.

3. Silence and Hiding

Whenever shame, doubt, or the fear of judgment from others succeed in keeping you from being seen and heard, vampires have a feeding frenzy!

4. LIES (of All Shapes and Sizes)

Omissions, denial, secrets kept for fear or deception… Where truth is concealed, or falsification is spun, the fabric of the spirit is thinned. The bigger the lie, the longer it is lived, the stronger the vampire.

5. Unspoken Truth of Feeling

A well-meaning cousin of Lies, the tender places where we hold back the truth of our hearts out of fear of separation or loss, or worrying about other people’s feelings, make opportunities for interference to enter.

6. Rumination

The spin cycle of low vibration, unexpressed feelings that turn into gremlin-y thoughts of resentment, envy, or judgment (even with the self). This also includes fixating on what you want for too long in the mind - especially from a place of longing and lack - without active pursuit.

7. Misplacement of Attention

Or Paranoia, versus Pronoia: the expectation of something good to happen. Spend more time focusing on worry, scarcity, and dread of the worst that could happen than on possibility and positive expectations of “what’s the best that could happen?”

8. Inaction

Stagnation for too long will turn us into prey. Indecision can become paralysis. The negative effect of this one is intensified by knowing what you need to do and STILL saying “not yet” for longer than necessary. No choice is still a choice, and it chooses vulnerability to energy vampires!

9. Suppression

Bottle up what wants to be physically expressed (positive or negative). When the tears come, swallow them down. When the urge to dance takes over, play it cool. When you want to scream, distract yourself with the anesthesia of mindless scrolling. Vampires, vampires, vampires!

10. Disconnect from Nature.

We have all felt the sickly pale creature of the night effect of staying inside under fluorescent lighting or plugged into a screen for too long. The sterilized and suffocating luxuries of modern human shelter can become a casket without proper balance, and the support of the elemental angels like sunlight, fresh air, and earth under our bare feet.

11. Disconnect from the Body & Self

Akin to separation from the Ma is the separation from our physical bodies and the depths of our inner worlds. Spend too much time working towards the future, plugged into the next stimulating simulacrum, and the mind can grow disconnected from the subconscious, leaving forgotten parts and neglected feelings to turn into monsters. The same goes for abandoning our “original” self; meaning, the self we were as children, connected to our roots and true passions. We can run but we cannot hide from who we really are. And the memory of our past will come back to haunt us if we leave it in the shadows for too long.

12. Disconnect from a higher power

…Or a greater field of relationship & meaning. Whatever our personal sense of God may be, when we stop praying to that divine power, forget the bigger picture, or cease to serve something greater than our own needs, interference is bound to gain the upper hand.

13. Overseriousness

“All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy.” There is wisdom and freedom in the great cosmic joke. The mystics, masters and shamans all know when to tap into the medicine of laughter, and how to hold it lightly. Play is protection. Take everything seriously, personally, and literally and you will give your power away along with your joy.

14. Insomnia

Anyone who doubts the vulnerability of “too much night” or the existence of vampires hasn’t spent enough time in an after hours club! The lore has tried to help us with this code: sunlight kills vampires. Occasional midnight adventures are good for the soul, but circadian rhythm alignment is essential for aliveness.

15. Unconsciousness

Anthony DeMello said it best: “Awareness, awareness, awareness.” The autopilot routine of going through the motions is unconsciousness. Too much time in that mode and we relinquish our power to be creative agents of true free will. Wherever we are not conscious of ourselves, shadow energy will run amok.

16. Desperation

Vampire energy is thirsty. It wants and craves and pursues. If you want to magnetize interference, become an energy match for vampires through desperation. Chase what doesn’t want you. Pine to be noticed. Go out of your way to be seen. Especially by the ones that don’t pay attention or respect! Want to crank it up a notch? Get obsessed. Check their social media page over and over again. Feel the vampires come flooding in. (I have unconsciously been really good at this one)

17. Settling

Compromise for less than your worth and true desire. Tell yourself you should just be happy with what you have. You wouldn’t want to risk losing it would you? Whenever you feel the urge to ask for a raise, or raise the standards in your relationship, better stay safe than sorry. Now, enter stage left… Vampires!

18. Repeated Self-Destructive Behaviors

Overconsumption, addiction, continuing to choose abuse, risking your own life… We are human beings having an experimental experience in existence. We are going to partake of risky, self-destructive behaviors from time to time. Where they get dicey and open the floodgates for energetic interference is when we know that they are harming us. Our agreement to harm ourselves can become a magnet for harm from the world around us. The more we repeat, the bigger the energy leak.

19. Lack of Boundaries

Not saying NO, when the body says so. This includes tolerance, the subtler form of No. Whether it is an internal scream or a soft resistance, a Yes expressed when a No is true may as well be a direct invitation to a vampire.

20. Avoiding Discomfort

…for too long. This is a big one, and we’ve all been there. Periods of respite in comfort, security and stability are essential for a healthy and happy life. But we all need hormetic stressors, too. And where it gets sketchy (more vulnerable to interference), is when we start to avoid the discomfort that would come by stepping bravely into our potential, rising to the occasion of the big life that our soul deeply desires for this incarnation. If we try to hide in the comfort we have found for too long, the vampires will come to drag us out and onward. By any means, our power will be requested, and tested, so we can claim it fully.

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These were the moves (or traps) that made me weak– spiritually, mentally, emotionally, and eventually even physically. Ultimately, they amount to integrity work, which always includes shadow work. Wherever there are discrepancies between the truth of our hearts and our actions, and the identity that we either want to believe we are, or the one we project outwards for others, that gap is a leak. That leak is an unmanned shadow path that lets our energy out, or lets other energies in.

And trust me, listing these (my own list of repeat offenses to my soul) is still a tough mirror to face. But facing it helps me track myself honestly so I can recognize where I might still be creating holes in the integrity of my energetic body. When I see them I can continue the vital patchwork of strengthening my energetic forcefield, and protecting myself from that which might otherwise suck the life out of me.

It’s kind of fun to catch, too.

It’s an interesting game. It was through inverting these lessons of “what not to do” into “what to do” that I was able to chart the structure of what I now call the “slayer” archetype. Because if this is the path to vampiric interference, then the opposite is preventative.

So the path of the Slayer is basically this: Keep your word, devour resistance, be visible, tell the truth, express your feelings, protect yourself & value your own life, exercise discernment and say no, lean into discomfort with confidence, take action (don’t think about it, be about it!), spend time in your body and in nature, be brave, speak honestly, keep a good work-life balance (make time to laugh, play and make love), stay connected to the natural circadian rhythm: rest at night and live in the natural day, be spontaneous and creative, choose novel pathways, and expect good things from a good reality. Envision possibility.

We are up against some strong counterforces (more on that in the next diary), so slaying ain’t easy. But doesn’t it sound like a life worth fighting for?

Personally, I sure think so. After all, I have never been one to earn things the easy way ;)

This summer, to me, feels like a prime time to slay.

Thank you for reading. I hope this heads up will help you a bit, the way it has helped me in hindsight. Stay strong in your integrity out there!

With Great Heart,

Caitlyn

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If you appreciated this article, keep an eye out for the 2nd Vampire Diary, dropping in a couple of days.

I am also hosting a FREE online workshop connected to this material, on Thursday May 21st at 4pm CST. Register to join live or to receive the recording at www.luma.com/sacredweapon

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And if you found value here and want to learn more about overcoming spiritual interference, “vampire” hunting, or techniques to empower the Slayer archetype in you, come learn and train with me in my online creative ritual program, The Slayers Club. The summer session begins soon, on May 25th.